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[littlemarmoset]

I haven't posted on this forum that many times, but I'm a frequent "lurker." I have a recurring desire. It's not a fetish, because I don't absolutely need it to get off, but it's certainly an idee fixe. I often fantasize about sitting on a muscular guy's lap. I also daydream about going for a piggyback ride on his huge back. I've never realized these thoughts, mainly because I'm a heavy guy myself. (I've lost about thirty pounds this past year but still weigh about 300). I suspect that others may have similar thoughts, but I've yet to find anyone who will express them. As I said, it's not something I've ever explored. I had a few chances to "roughhouse" with friends when I was a teenager and in my early twenties, but I was too timid to follow through. I wasn't comfortable with my sexuality at that point, and I was worried that I might get aroused by such horseplay. I'm still kind of scared of being that close to another guy, being that vulnerable, but it's a desire that comes back time and time again.

Does anyone have similar thoughts? I'd love to hear from you.

Scott

PS "Little marmoset" is from I, Claudius, a favorite book and TV series of mine. Claudius's schoolboy friend--and later enemy--calls the emperor that nickname, and I've always liked it.