I need help

[iluvmassivemusl]

If you are reading this Beast, please don't read on. PLEASE!





Ok, I think I have a problem. I can not stop beating myself up at every given opportunity and can't take that I am not the best. Every time I see myself not muscled and strong I get depressed, and I'm not talking about slight sadness I'm talking about someone just killed your pet in front of you sad. Like a sledgehammer between the eyes. I can not look at myself in a positive light, I might say I am cute, then go on about how I am fat, slow, weak, stupid, ignorant, childish, immature, and so on. And that was all not staged btw, that all just came out like water. The worst part is that in other men, I think I could find my qualities attractivish, but not on me. I don't know what to do. And you know what the WORST part of this is. This site is starting to make me feel this way. EVERY time I read a post about one of you muscled guys getting bigger and stronger, all I think is "Never gonna be you" Every time I see the positive comments, I think "Never gonna be you" And everytime I read a musclegrowth story, something I used to look forward to every day, I think "Never gonna be you". You are never going to be big and not fat, you are never going to be strong, you are never going to be attractive to any big strong guys. Sorry but I needed to vent so bad, anyone have any advice?

[inm]

Depression is a medical condition, and I'd advice to get help. There is no shame in that, and if you say it is getting worse, please do something about it. Whatever your journey in life, this condition may preventing you from achieving it!
just my 2c