So Wrong Yet So Right

boricua1 · #1 October 27th, 2007, 08:08 AM

I'm self-conflicted, one part of me says that getting too big won't look good to many guys and girls. Another part of me has this unbelievable urge to grow bigger, thicker, and beefier. Just the thought of muscle exploding all over me gets me aroused and so pumped up.

I've been lazy the last couple of months when it comes to lifting but I'm working on getting back into the gym, in the meantime I'm trying to put on weight. 5'6 160 lbs. .... my goal is 180-185 lbs. That's a realistic goal... as much as people warn me not to go over that... secretly I want to be over 200 lbs. It's the size and mass that turns me on. I picture myself that big, get off on the thought of attaining such a size and being noticed for it.

I mean most of us would probably agree muscles are hot but is it so wrong to crave such a massive body?

Would one say it's some type of disorder like muscle dysmorphia (bigorexia?)

I mean to get up in the morning everyday, check the mirror , flex, and envision all these images with you packed on with all this muscle like Johnnie Jackson or Denis James.... is it wrong to want to be that muscular?

What do you guys think... should I aim for that dream?

Imagine if we all grew to the size we wanted.... wow I'd probably go to 300 something breaking out of all my clothes with the biggest grin on my face and such a hard on. lol

chocomus · #2 October 27th, 2007, 12:10 PM

I don't think you are the only one thinking that. Me myself, I am even more complicated because adding those two parts I add a third one, that I'm a bit shy and being too big would draw too much attention. But from all those three parts I think the part who wants to get big wins.
So I say: Go for it!

mordre_t · #3 October 27th, 2007, 12:15 PM

I say, why worry yourself so much with what other people think? Honestly, so what if some people think it's wrong or gross? Some people will judge, but they're probably not worth knowing anyway, if they decide they like you and approve of you based on how you look, instead of what kind of a person you are and how you act. A friend of mine gets a terrible haircut and thinks it's great. I don't stop being their friend.

Also, it's slightly a misnomer to say a desire to be bigger = bigorexia. Body dysmorphia is when you do not have an accurate mental concept of your physical body. So a 250 lbs bodybuilder who thought of himself as small or scrawny would have body dysmorphia or "bigorexia." What you (and most here) have is just a desire to get big and buff, plus a fetish for the same.

Yachirobi · #4 October 27th, 2007, 12:41 PM

Boricula, There's nothing wrong with wanting to be big. But are you willing to destroy yourself to do so? If so then you need mental help, not bigger muscles, but I don't think you have that problem. If you're just worried about what others will think then that's reasonable, but don't worry about that. Make sure your life is balanced and that you're happy and getting all of your goals accomplished and needs fulfilled. As long as getting big isn't getting in the way of the rest of your life then you'll be just fine.

But you should also post lots of pics so that we can keep track.

What? You were thinking the same thing. You know it.

RPM · #5 October 27th, 2007, 01:05 PM

I don't think it's wrong. That kind of fitness and development is a good thing in many ways. If you want to talk "wrong", you're heading into the "why?" territory: what are your reasons or motivations for wanting that? Depends why you want it and what you want to do with it. There's plenty good reasons, so don't go getting dysmorphia-paranoid over potentially good desires and goals.

I didn't see anything about wanting to destroy yourself in any way... obviously you ought to stay away from the drug market, but beyond that, everybody's got different bodies built for different optimal builds, so as far as goals are concerned, my suggestion is just do you best all the time every time and see where that gets you. If you puff right up, great; if not, you'll still benefit in plenty other ways. Goals are somewhat motivating, but if you don't like the process for the process itself (in other words, enjoy exercising), it'll be a hard journey and you may find yourself breaking consistency relative to the set goal (in other words, don't go lax because you're progressing faster than expected and don't get tempted with "shortcuts" and drugs if you're progressing slower than expected).

suma · #6 October 27th, 2007, 09:22 PM

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Originally Posted by chocomus

I don't think you are the only one thinking that. Me myself, I am even more complicated because adding those two parts [COLOR=red]I add a third one, that I'm a bit shy and being too big would draw too much attention[/COLOR]. But from all those three parts I think the part who wants to get big wins.
So I say: Go for it!

I suffer from that too somewhat, altho it's odd because one side of me craves to behave like a cocky muscle show-off and get as hugfe as possible.

boricua1 · #7 October 28th, 2007, 09:50 AM

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Originally Posted by Yachirobi

Boricula, There's nothing wrong with wanting to be big. But are you willing to destroy yourself to do so? If so then you need mental help, not bigger muscles, but I don't think you have that problem. If you're just worried about what others will think then that's reasonable, but don't worry about that. Make sure your life is balanced and that you're happy and getting all of your goals accomplished and needs fulfilled. As long as getting big isn't getting in the way of the rest of your life then you'll be just fine.

But you should also post lots of pics so that we can keep track.

What? You were thinking the same thing. You know it.

Nah I'm okay. lol. I'm pretty happy with who I am and where I'm at. It's just a little confliction. I figure I'll aim for a particular goal, get there, and if I'm willing to take it further I know I will because I have the drive and desire to be a powerfully massive muscle head.

Everyday I get up not letting it consume me but motivated to add the pounds and transform into the hispanic Johnnie Jackson's body.

I mean really you can only have that dream of bustin out of your clothes with a huge hard on so many times leading one to flex in front of a mirror everday and pump themselves up to get bigger.

You guys know what I'm talking about! If only we can grow spontaneously and have other people watch us become the muscle gods of size and proportion.

Anywho... enjoy the following clip.

You Tube

trbushinu · #8 February 20th, 2008, 07:15 AM

Never had this problem... I always want to get bigger. But then, it is likely that i will never be able to get to be the size where i would be considered 'freakish', simply because I am very tall, so there is a LOT of space to fill until that appearance is achieved. Current stats are 265# at 6'4" tall. I would guess serious hugeness would happen close to the 300# mark for me, which is probably not attainable realistically for me (ectomorph close to natural limits already), but if it did... honestly, I would really not worry about the opinions of 'other' people. So far there has been no shortage of guys (in my case) that seem to be turned on by my size and wouldn't mind a bit if I was (much) bigger.

abbraxis · #9 February 20th, 2008, 12:03 PM

I'm a skinny 140 lbs. right now, so If I can get to a healthy, fit 160 lbs. I'd be satisfied. Elated, actually. What can I say? I'm easy to please.

Also, I'd rather be "ripped" then big. Plus, since I'm already skinny, it should be easier to add lean mass than blow up and trim down...

musclegod300 · #10 February 20th, 2008, 12:20 PM

Honestly, yeah it may look disgusting to some people, but fuck em. There are tons of girls or guys that will be attracted to your size, and worship you for that. Also your friends should support you no matter what your decision on this matter. I mean its not like your doing drugs or doing something life threatening. And if not maybe there just not the type of people you want to be hanging around anyway. Its your dream dude and its a realistic one, I mean if you think about it people dream about dumb things everyday but we still dream about them, and we still hope for them. But this you can actually accomplish. You can actually get the one thing you have obviously desired and taken some time to think about. So if you wanna be big, Go for it

Hope this Helps
-Alex

Slevin · #11 February 20th, 2008, 03:48 PM

Many people have a "private" self and a "public" self. The public self is often more influenced by societies norms and values than the private self. Society does often attach negative words to "over" muscular guys.

In the end you will have do what makes YOU happy. If it makes you happy to conform to the norms of society (which is not a bad thing!) then okay. If you are happy working out until your 200+ pounds, go for it.

I don't think you suffer from Body Dysmorphic Disorder. But you didn't really provide how you feel about it.

jerseyflex · #12 February 22nd, 2008, 05:54 PM

it is definitely a matter of personal taste. i would love to be freakishly huge but it is impractical. at 6' and at my heaviest I was 240 and often thought of as a "dumb meathead" in my professional corporate life. so i leaned out to 195 and in corporate clothes was not as noticable and things seemed to change. plus i like being well defined when i was shirtless.

i fear getting too big because of what i will look like when i get into my late 40's and 50's. plus its not really practical and can make life difficult. i mean, more power (ha...like he needs "more power") but more power to the Cutlers and Branch Warrens of the world but its just not for me. Ill take the well muscled and well defined look at 195-215 maybe even 220. after that, no thanks. no interest in carrying around 300 pounds.

now - if i could increase my height to the 7 foot range that would be friggin sweet but thats just never gonna happen.

Username3 · #13 February 23rd, 2008, 01:37 AM

[COLOR=lime]As long as you do other things with your life besides work out, you'll be ok :][/COLOR]

boricua1 · #14 February 23rd, 2008, 01:56 PM

It was just a question for a desire that was put out there. I wanted to see if anyone had the same type of feelings. However, I do not get constantly absorbed in this type of question. I do have a life outside of the goal and desire of becoming a massively thick muscled man

Conflicting at times but not debilitating.

The goal is ecstatic mountains of muscle bursting at the seams of my clothes. That one mere pose or flex can rippem off and have me hard as hell looking at the mounds of sizable power my body exudes. One can at least dream! LOL.

Thanks for the feed back guys!

BigLittleTim · #15 February 25th, 2008, 12:02 PM

[COLOR=#9c9c63]Hey Bud,[/COLOR]
[COLOR=#9c9c63]All the dreams in the world, and all the desire to transform yourself and realize your fantasies, won't do a bit of good if you just maunder and talk about it. Don't dream it, kiddo; BE it![/COLOR]

[COLOR=#9c9c63]For your poetic pleasure... from Edgar Lee Master's "Spoon River":[/COLOR]

[COLOR=#9c9c63]64. George Gray[/COLOR]

I HAVE studied many times

The marble which was chiseled for me—

A boat with a furled sail at rest in a harbor.

In truth it pictures not my destination

But my life.

For love was offered me and I shrank from its disillusionment;

Sorrow knocked at my door, but I was afraid;

Ambition called to me, but I dreaded the chances.

Yet all the while I hungered for meaning in my life.

And now I know that we must lift the sail

And catch the winds of destiny

Wherever they drive the boat.

To put meaning in one’s life may end in madness,

But life without meaning is the torture

Of restlessness and vague desire—

It is a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid.

boricua1 · #16 February 25th, 2008, 10:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by BigLittleTim

[COLOR=#9c9c63]Hey Bud,[/COLOR]
[COLOR=#9c9c63]All the dreams in the world, and all the desire to transform yourself and realize your fantasies, won't do a bit of good if you just maunder and talk about it. Don't dream it, kiddo; BE it![/COLOR]

[COLOR=#9c9c63]For your poetic pleasure... from Edgar Lee Master's "Spoon River":[/COLOR]

[COLOR=#9c9c63]64. George Gray[/COLOR]

I HAVE studied many times

The marble which was chiseled for me?

A boat with a furled sail at rest in a harbor.

In truth it pictures not my destination

But my life.

For love was offered me and I shrank from its disillusionment;

Sorrow knocked at my door, but I was afraid;

Ambition called to me, but I dreaded the chances.

Yet all the while I hungered for meaning in my life.

And now I know that we must lift the sail

And catch the winds of destiny

Wherever they drive the boat.

To put meaning in one?s life may end in madness,

But life without meaning is the torture

Of restlessness and vague desire?

It is a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid.

OKAY I'M NOT A BIG GUY, THANKS FOR THE ENCOURAGING WORDS THOUGH... BUT REALITY IS NOTHING HAPPENS OVER NIGHT. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH DREAMING OR HAVING A DESIRE. I'M NOT JUST TALKING ABOUT IT , IT'S HAPPENED AND IT WILL CONTINUE TO HAPPEN FOR ME.

I'M NOT IN DESPERATE NEED OF INTERNAL WORK, BUT I WANTED TO SEE IF THERE WERE OTHER PEOPLE OUT THERE LIKE THAT. WHEN YOU HAVE PEOPLE OF THE SAME WANT AND DESIRE THAT ARE ABLE TO DISCUSS IT ... IT CAN BE ENCOURAGING AND GOOD TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE.

I'M NOT NAIVE OR LOOKING FOR GUIDANCE ... ADVICE MAYBE, COMMONALITY DEFINITELY... BUT NOT A LESSON. THANKS FOR YOUR WORDS THOUGH. I'LL HOLD BACK ON THE POSTS, BEFORE MORE PEOPLE IN HERE START THINKING THE SAME THING.