How to push the animal?

[drehpehs]

Hey guys,
I would like to share my experience with you, maybe some of you have a similar one and could push me a bit... The muscle growth fantasies have been with me since kindergarten, largely supported by cartoons, comics, muscle mags and my own drawings as the time passed by. I tried to join the gym several times but with no real growth response from my body I always gave up after few months. Now I tease my torso with push-ups at least... Anyway - I live in the Netherlands now, which means a lot of weed... and I think it got to release some muscle-crazy beast from inside me. It happened in june for the first time and ever since then each time I smoke I can feel it stronger. It starts with a heat spreading through my body and into upper torso, then, when I feel really warm, my muscles - mainly arms and pecs - slowly start to pump and flex by themselves - even if I try to quit doing this and relax them. I probably always wanted it so bad I can?t stop it now. It always begins in a slow way but gets wilder and more intense as more blood pumps in. I feel the waves of this beasty power spreading through the muscles, inflating them. Sometimes I?d really want to quit what?s going on since it gets beyond my control and hurts. I?m losing myself and the animal is taking over. Then I get really scared because I actually feel my muscles growing and getting bigger, and also because at that point I have no constraints, I just feel the urge to become immense, there?s only one thing on my mind: my muscles exploding, inflating so much they tear the skin, carry away the human features, and beyond (like FUUUCK THE HUUUMANS NOW I EXPAAAND!!!). I could say it?s just a kind of a weed trip if only I wouldn?t see my muscles getting pumped, swelling and getting red. And it never ends at this point. When it hurts then everything starts again, I can see in the mirror that my pecs and biceps are swollen and red and that I?m bigger then before. I wanted to be sure so I tried some clothes and yes, after the ride everything gets tighter. Now this is happening several times a day, without smoking anything, and I see the shape of my bics and pecs is changing - all without hitting the gym. I know it?s probably just an effect of pumping but I never expected anything like this possible. Plus the stretchmarks appeared on my biceps. Now it?s been happening for over a half a year and I think the experience of being hugely muscle-bound is what my body and mind crave for. I cannot stop it.
I would like to know - has anyone gone throught the simillar mind-shaping of body thing? And do you know how to push it even further?

[wolfotehmoon]

Sorry, dude, I think this goes in the in the story section ;3

But in the off-chance you're NOT lying... Where're you gettin' your weed?

>_>
<_<

[drehpehs]

No, I?m not lying. This is just what is happening to me, and I am quite surprised. Anyway Amsterdam is the answer.

[Slevin]

See: Marijuana induced psychosis :P

[GunMetalGrey88]

what brand are you smoking and where can i get it, i insist on beat pounding music give the beast something to roar to