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timberino · #1 March 28th, 2005, 08:30 AM

heres five pics. i'm a dufus and cant figure out how to make them pop up. i dont really have any comparison but when i take more i'll post them. i took them to have some sexy/muscular pictures for myspace. i feel i failed. i look at them and think i look pretty scrawny.... i got issues. i'm debating whether to keep tryin to gaining and not take typed to get cut. i just wanna be at 200lbs by next summer. i dont know. here they are.
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y74/timberino/62.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y74/timberino/52.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y74/timberino/42.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y74/timberino/32.jpg
http://i3.photobucket.com/albums/y74/timberino/22.jpg

ethernet_jock · #2 March 28th, 2005, 08:52 AM

awwww.... dude!!! Don't be so hard on yourself! That's a problem that WE ALL have... if you read back in many of the threads about personal growth experiences and such you'll discover that most of us have that problem - big time.

You look AWESOME for a guy who's only been lifting for a couple months.... the muscle I see on your body has taken me YEARS to come close to matching and I might say that there are a couple features of yours that make me a bit jeaous!

Very good work! Imagine how hot you'll look if you keep working at it so hard for ... say.... another 12 months?!?

Digibacker · #3 March 28th, 2005, 10:02 AM

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Originally Posted by timberino

i look at them and think i look pretty scrawny.... i got issues.

Ditto what EJ said. Most of us builders on here have the same problem. "Bigorexia", someone mentioned.

But you definitely don't have anything to worry about. You may not have the size -- yet -- but you're very muscular. That's certainly worth being proud of.

Just keep working at it and you'll grow. You've already made a great head start, and you're looking darned good right now.

arpeejay · #4 March 28th, 2005, 11:13 AM

What EJ and Digibacker said PLUS:

I love the fur! Please don't shave it. When you achieve Hulkdom you'll be VERY popular over at Colt.com!

xoxo

richard

CanadianGordon · #5 March 28th, 2005, 11:23 AM

Very nice. Keep it up.
You're quite big, but please open your eyes when you take a picture.

Need anyone to help take those pictures?

Marco_ukmus · #6 March 28th, 2005, 12:19 PM

I agree with Ether and Digi. I think because we all wanna get bigger we have this mental picture in our mind that some how plays havock with any progress we make until we are getting or have got that image or ideal physically accomplished. Mind you, I suspect once ones there we probably will only want more. Anyway, The thing about building a bigger body is that, for those that don't know, its ALL about determination. Muscle size like an extra 30lbs in your case does not grow within a few weeks, or even a few months. It does grow day by day but only by a very little bit (assuming your nutrional intake is good coupled with sufficient intensive training). For that reason, many people loose sight of what they have actually gained and achieved and thus stop training. You just HAVE to keep going. We all have this "Bigorexia" problem. In part, thats why its arguably better to use your weight and measurments as growth confirmation. This is what i have, a log, and it helps me by confirming 100% that am actually growing even though when i look at myself the "Bigorexia" kicks in and tricks me into thinking otherwise.

Stay positive and stick with it, and you WILL get that 30lbs and more of lean muscle mass!

Marc

ashleydelfin · #7 March 28th, 2005, 12:53 PM

Agreed, with everyone. It's like the more you expect it the less it comes. But you look awesome right now! I don't see scrawny anywhere! You so have this "bigorexia" thing... not that I'm complaining.

Like arpeejay said, don't shave! You've got the kind of body hair that's just hot... body hair + muscle is just going to be... well, near incredible. Just keep on working out and before you know it you'll have gains and peeps on the street will all be turning to see you and crashing into stuff.

~Ashley

ethernet_jock · #8 March 28th, 2005, 01:46 PM

as if to throw another log on the fire...

I agree - the body hair is one of your great assets. Some guys have too much and in the wrong places - yours is perfect. I'm not nearly that hairy but we can't all be giant hot muscular young ape-men now can we?

ANYHOW - to the point I was getting to. Last Monday night my wife was out at one of her Mary Kay things and I was alone with my son doing the "mens night" thing... always fun (actually I really do enjoy it). and anyway, I was wearing a moderately tight wife-beater tank top that night and some gym shorts and I passed by the mirror in the hallway and caught myself out of the corner of my eye doing one of those "damn! woah! who is THAT big guy?!" kind of takes.... of course realizing that it's me... and yet not believing it.

So later that night I took about 10-15 self-portraits using the timer on our digital cam - thinking.... well... I guess it's time to update my pictures to everyone since I've obviously grown more than I think I have. Then I downloaded all the pictures to the computer and began to sort through them looking for the best ones to crop and post appropriately.

The trouble is - when I looked at myself that way - they all looked like crap to me. Suddenly I had this feeling like I couldn't understand why I took those pictures and they all just looked to me like a slightly overweight old man (I'm only 28, mind you) trying to flex a tiny little bicep or pec to impress nobody. I was disgusted with myself (literally) and deleted all the files. A little while after that I was even MORE disgusted with myself for deleting all the files and for allowing myself that much self-hate.... and just so irritated with the whole process that I didn't take any more pictures and haven't since.

So what I'm trying to say is... even when I think I've conquered this thing, sometimes it still comes back to hurt me. you're not alone and we're all in this same boat. I hope some day that I like my body enough to be proud of it, but until then, I'll continue to keep up the hard work and be as good a person as I can!

Thanks for your time and sharing! Please stick around!

-Chris

SithSpawn · #9 March 28th, 2005, 01:59 PM

Looking at the photos 2 things spring to mind: 1) you need either a haircut or a comb

and 2) it looks to me like you're using a Canon eos300 camera, same as me which has a timer on it so get yourself a tripod and use that (or get a remote button for it, I've got one and it's great), then you're pictures will look a lot better and you may not be so hard on yourself. Seriously, you look like you're a bit preocupied by whether the camera is going to get a good pic, if you use the timer you can get the pose just right and let the camera do it's work.

weaknobody · #10 March 28th, 2005, 02:48 PM

hey, what do you mean you look scrawny???
c'mon, you're looking great! i know a thousand guys who would love to look like you (including me! hehe).
just keep training hard and you'll get where you want to.
i know it's a lot of patience to ask but here we are to help you get through it.
keep going, and nice work till now!

timberino · #11 March 28th, 2005, 04:30 PM

i really didnt expect that many responses. i'm glad i actually grew some balls and posted it. i need whatever support i can get. i dont have friends that workout. i always consider my body hair my worst attribute. i would rather have the smoothness of marco_ukmus(you have a beautiful body). you make me think about not shaving it all though. i appreciate the support. i feel a little less insane. like you guys have said though... i worry i'm gonna get to 200 then thing 225 and just keep building on the problem. in a way i've worried this site fills me with crazy ideas of being some 7ft400lb12indicked monster being just the ultimate... perfection... i guess. i've got to admit its getting better. thank you all.

buffdoc · #12 March 28th, 2005, 05:09 PM

Just wanted to second what everyone said. You are definitively not scrawny and have the start of a solid build. You have to keep size in perspective and be realistic about what is possible after optimizing diet and training. Not everyone has the capacity to super huge without awesome genetics and/or lots of anabolics. If however, you stick with training long term, you will get stronger and ultimately bigger. And one other thing--keep the chest hair but I am definitvely biased about that.

glammaman2000 · #13 March 28th, 2005, 06:46 PM

...like Marco,you're gifted with a genetically pretty shape & already showing some impressive development.As to the hair,for my tastes;you might try trimming just below the pecs & on either side of the vertical on your abs.BUT MOST IMPORTANT!Set realistic goals.How about a 6'5"350lb.muscle-monster with an 11"cock?You can always move on from there!

brent · #14 March 28th, 2005, 11:12 PM

I have to agree with Glam on this one. You are already very atractive, and making obvious progress. If you stick with it, I think you'll be very pleased. It just takes time... and a LOT of work!

Marco_ukmus · #15 March 28th, 2005, 11:23 PM

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Originally Posted by timberino

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i would rather have the smoothness of marco_ukmus(you have a beautiful body).

Thanks Timberino! I'm working on it.

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Originally Posted by timberino

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i worry i'm gonna get to 200 then thing 225 and just keep building on the problem

Don't worry about it now. Get there first and then worry about it. To be honest by the time you get to 200lbs, if not well before, your self confidence and opinions will have changed. You'll still have the "bogerexia" but your self worth will have changed, what with all those stares and smiles you'll get as people walk by you. The very little muscle I have gained whilst working out, which has only been for the last 7 months I mgith add, has changed my opinion of myself no end. My self confidence has rocketed, obviously not to a level of arigance though.

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Originally Posted by timberino

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in a way i've worried this site fills me with crazy ideas of being some 7ft400lb12indicked monster being just the ultimate... perfection...

This site has everything. Support, great community, great debates, and great place to meet like minded people. Ofcourse it does have the wide monsterious images and un-comprehendable muscle growth stories. Don't worry about the crazy ideas, so long as you like them, and bear in mind that such transformations are only realistic once genetic engineering and nano technology become a comodity (prop ten+ years from now).

I dare say it, I'm personally not a hairy fan, thats not to say I'm 100% smooth, just the hair is not so prominant from a distance. Everyone's different and has different preferences. If you want it, then keep it, if you dont, then don't. Having said that, it does appear that pretty much all the coments so far suggest that people love the hair!

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Originally Posted by glammaman2000

BUT MOST IMPORTANT!Set realistic goals.How about a 6'5"350lb.muscle-monster with an 11"cock?You can always move on from there!

Glam your so funny!

Seriously though, you should set more realistic goals, bah to 200lbs, and don't listen to glam's suggestion, thats just silly! Being realistic i'd suggest at least 513lbs with an 20"'er... oh and at least 8'1...

Keep growing mate and don't give up. I don't have a training partner either, I guess you just have to find it within your self to keep giving it your all until you get one...

Marc

brent · #16 March 29th, 2005, 10:10 AM

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Keep growing mate and don't give up. I don't have a training partner either, I guess you just have to find it within your self to keep giving it your all until you get one...

Marc

If you don't have a partner, might I suggest http://www.exercisefriends.com/?

Marco_ukmus · #17 March 29th, 2005, 01:04 PM

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Originally Posted by brent

If you don't have a partner, might I suggest http://www.exercisefriends.com/?

Thanks for tip Brent! i'll be sure to check it out

Marc

brent · #18 March 29th, 2005, 01:39 PM

The site doesn't have a lot of members yet, but I've met local people through it. If people here tell people in other forums about it, and they tell others, then I'm sure you'll start finding local people that could become workout partners. However, I think it's a great idea, and a good site.

BigSteve6ft3 · #19 March 30th, 2005, 12:15 AM

timberino,

I think you're lookin' great. Definitely not scrawny.

I don't have much to add that these other guys haven't already said, but I thought I'd throw in my words of agreement. Just keep working out and, slowly but surely, you'll reach your goals. Keep striving to improve -- there's nothing wrong with that -- but along the way try to be happy with where you're at.

As for the body hair, my opinion is that people look best when they go with what nature gave them. If you're hairy, be hairy. It's a sexy, masculine look. Don't mess with it. Wish I was hairier. (In general, trying to fight nature is usually a bad idea, aesthetics-wise. E.g., Michael Jackson started out as a fairly attractive black man, but he wanted to look like -- well, your guess is as good as mine -- and now look at him.)

My thoughts on "bigorexia": It's not a disorder. It's a health-promoting mindset. Anorexia is a disorder because it drives its victims to become weak and unhealthy. "Bigorexia" does the opposite; it drives you to achieve greater size, strength and health. What's so wrong with that? I'm always annoyed when some self-proclaimed expert (e.g. the author of the book "The Adonis Complex") decides that this very natural and widespread male mindset is some kind of problem that must be solved. As long as you're not making yourself miserable with self-loathing over it, or abusing steroids because of it, how could wanting to be and working to be stronger, more muscular, healthier, be a bad thing? It's just a bit of perfectionism applied to your own body, a bit of desire that will motivate you to get into the gym and reap all the benefits of exercise (besides just looks). It seems to me that the much more damaging mindset (prevalent in the US these days) is the acceptance of poor physical condition, of obesity, of general ill health. Power to the bigorexics!

So keep on doin' what you're doin'. You're looking good already. I'm sure you're going to keep getting bigger and buffer as time goes on. (And keep taking pictures, so we can all marvel at the transformation).

Steve

skinhead30 · #20 April 7th, 2005, 01:25 AM

great bod m8 keep going

loopyrhino2001 · #21 April 8th, 2005, 05:41 AM

I don't see "scrawny" in your pics, and believe me, I know from scrawny (I'm still there, myself). You are off to a good start, keep it up!

timberino · #22 April 16th, 2005, 12:01 PM

Dotandtheline · #23 April 16th, 2005, 12:52 PM

Wow! You look great dude! You're really getting big these days. Nice legs too. Keep pumping up, I'm anxious to see where you go.

Cheers,

Waldentheant

BigSteve6ft3 · #24 April 16th, 2005, 09:33 PM

You are definitely on the right track, timberino. Keep it up.

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Originally Posted by timberino

if anyone feels like morphing them that would be rockin.

OK, here you go -- a little motivation for you. Nothing extreme, just a realistic preview of what you'll look like when you hit 200.

Marco_ukmus · #25 April 16th, 2005, 11:21 PM

Hi timberino! Your doing great man! I personally think pic 16 is the best, shows a very strong chest, shoulders and arms development taking place!

YOu have also made good use of the sun direction. The only thing i'd say is try to get the person whom is taking the photo to cut some of the background out, as you are the subject so just a bit of background around the edges would be fine.

Excellent progress! Keep growing mate!

Marc

brent · #26 April 16th, 2005, 11:42 PM

T, you are coming along very well. Don't sell yourself short, I can notice the difference.

BigSteve6ft3 · #27 April 17th, 2005, 01:14 AM

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Originally Posted by timberino

if anyone feels like morphing them that would be rockin.

Well, you asked for 'em, so I decided to do another.

Now I know that once you reach 200 lbs, you won't be satisfied, so I gave you another 25 lbs. or so.

Here's timberino at 225 lbs. (I've got a funny feeling that, in a few years time, you're actually going to get there)

timberino · #28 April 17th, 2005, 09:57 AM

Thank you so much. They look great. I dont know whether you're right about 200 not being enough... if i keep talking to you guys it wont be

. I'll put em up on my wall as inspiration though. It loooks like it could be fun.

brent · #29 April 17th, 2005, 11:06 AM

Ha, ha, ha. You're right. If you keep hanging out here, you'll never be big enough. However, that can be a good thing; life's too short to be small!

weaknobody · #30 April 17th, 2005, 09:19 PM

wow! nice pictures
i never figured you were this big by the first ones you posted.
i keep what i said before, i will be REALLY happy when i achieve your development!
good work!
Leo

djwitko · #31 April 17th, 2005, 09:35 PM

Dude, I would love to workout with you, get all hot, sweaty, pumped and fucking grow MAN!!! Getting huge together!!!! Feel each other's swollen muscles, caress, lick.... OH YEAH, I'd be into that. Your one hot stud. Keep it up and I'll keep pumping myself up here in Chicago and we'll hook up. I think we should challenge each other to grow and compare, that would be so hot. Anyone want to challenge and sponsor us two studs to out grow the other!!