When Did It Happen?

[musclegod300]

I was just wondering when you guys realized you were attracted to muscle, and when did you think of or discover muscle growth?

For me it started for me in elementary school beginning with this ABC special on obsessions, before my 5th grade year. They did a segment on bodybuilding and it was just videos of this one guy flexing in his small posers and stuff, flexing in the mirror saying he never thought he was big enough.. and for some reason I really liked it. That's when I started noticing the Muscle magazines in the stores wanting to look at them but was embarrassed, even when I was around my friends I was to nervous to get one. One time I did bring it up with my friend Andy how freaky those guys looked and he asked If I wanted to buy one with him, but I turned him down being the stupid kid I was. So I started stealing them, jerking off to them in the bath tub! Exploring Websites on the computer, downloading more and more pictures of bodybuilders, even getting into the nudes eventually. Muscle growth though started entering my life in the 7th grade when my friend Grant got freaky big! As big as most High School wreatlers and I was completly turned on by him. The way he always flexed in front of me telling me too feel his biceps. Then I would go home jerking off thinking about him growing bigger and bigger! Falling into some chemical and making him grow or stuff like that. I was in total denial about my sexuality, dating girls etc.. Tell finally soph year my parents found gay porn haha and that's when I came out. I would never want to get big myself or date a really big muscular guy especially sense he would be more in love with the gym than with me, and because I just want a nice normal guy to spend time with. But I Still think its awesome though that people have the drive to do things without giving a fuck what people think! Growing as big and strong as they Can!! Anyway I'm just wondering When Did other people get into it too??

[arpeejay]

As for muscle:

When I was 3 or 4 years old. Jack LaLanne in black and white, doing exercises for the ladies.

Plus Hercules and Tarzan movies.

Later on, comic books, especially the Marvel ones; they had ads in the back (for Weider products) featuring people like Larry Scott, Robby Robinson, Dave Draper, Freddie Ortiz.

Those were the days! :-)

xoxo

Richard

[Minotaur]

Around 1993 when I started working out. I saw an issue of Exercise For Men Only with a really hot cover model. But I was really always attracted to muscular handsome men even as a teenager.

[RPM]

Hard to say. I never did get into muscle toons much when I was younger. But some friends and I definitely got into the muscle mags when we were beginning middle school (that is grade 6). Perhaps it was partly because we figured nobody would bully you, perhaps it was just for looks, perhaps in my case there was a touch of rebellion - parents didn't like it, so it ended up being something I wanted to do (that seems to be how everything goes). But in the end, and above all, it's something to aspire to.

As for muscle growth specifically, I can't say I'm "into" the majority of fictions posted here. I love to work out, am a fan of bodybuilding and increasing physical fitness, but this is in a natural sense. The inflation scenarios and other cartoonish things are just too unrealistic to move me in any way. They're amusing, but I grew up seeing "normal" progress and have developed a respect for it which "enhanced" progress has not managed to budge.

[newmus]

i think for me it was around 3 or 4. one night i went exploring at the strip mall we were at and i vividly remember wandering into the little closet of a gym that was there. they had a trampoline in there and i couldn't resist. anyway i jumping away when i happen to notice the poster on the wall in front of me. i remember it was like i was in a trance, mesmerized by the glistening muscles. sexual attraction to muscle didn't come until puberty and i never took notice of muscle growth per se until i found it on the net.

[alterego]

I never knew I had any attraction to muscle until I started bulking up myself for football in the 7th grade. I loved the way I started to fill out my shirts, and we had to buy me bigger clothes because thats when I hit my growth spurt too. After the 8th grade I decided to quit football and focus on just getting bigger, working out in the school gym after school and stuff. I always remembered though wanting to be even bigger though like i was never satisfied especially working out with some of seniors, and seeing how huge they were. One day I over heard 2 guys talking about steroids and I asked if they Knew where I could got some. They hooked me up and I have been on them ever sense. I was 14 Then so I was a little young and I knew I shouldn't have but Once I started i couldn't stop. I was making gains like crazy, finally catching up to some of the bigger guys as the year went on. Finally my senior year I was the biggest Kid in our school and loved it. My parents wanted me to slow down, and some of my friends but, I just couldn't get enough. Thats when I really started imagining myself growing insanely huge, looking things up online when I saw this site. I have slown down a little on taking steroids trying to go natural but its hard, especially because of the amazing sex drive and power it gives me. And muscle Mags are a must for anyone who's into muscle. I'm subscribed and look forward to every issue!

[mc802]

I remember back in 8th grade me and my friends would always be flexing our biceps and forearms to see who had the biggest biceps and who had the veiniest foreams. My one friend Greg had the freakiest rock hard biceps. Each bicep head was split down the middle and they would just explode every time he flexed them. His body was so ripped and defined and his skin was paper thin. I remember the excitement I got and the sensation that ran through me every time I watched him flex. Watching his biceps grow into huge mounds muscle. Greg always asked us to feel how hard his bicep muscle was and it gave me such an amazing rush and a hardon, every time I felt it. Seeing the attention Greg received from everyone gave me the drive to workout and build my own body. And when I started to workout, I felt an amazing high from the sensation of feeling my body grow. And I wanted more. That gave me the drive to grow. And the muscle fantasies sort of evolved.

[jsmith2300]

In high school, I was attracted to quite a few guys. I didn't realize until late why that was. I grew up in Indiana, so we had plenty of corn fed boys who loved to play football. For me, though, it was the basketball players who attracted me most. One guy in particular I remember from middle school.

His name was Bryan. His mother was a teacher at our elementary school, and she was TALL. I'm talking around 6' which for a woman is very tall. And for a young child in elementary school, it's downright gigantic. I always expected Bryan to be tall, but I actually kept pace with him for many years. In 7th grade (while he was in 6th - a year younger than me), we were the same height. That was the last time I was even close in height or size to this kid.

By the time he was in 7th grade, he was already three inches taller than me and nearing the same height as his mother. He was hitting puberty big time, and started to work out as part of our middle school's basketball team. He had the height, and he took very well to lifting as well to build mass. He had always been a wirey kid. No longer.

By the time he was a freshman in high school, he stood a mammoth 6'3" and weighed close to 230 pounds. He - naturally - made the Varsity team as a freshman, and our coach had him continue his workouts. Most guys at that size are either big/fat or lanky. Bryan, though, had this amazing mix of muscle and grace. He never looked too bulky but you could tell he was ripped.

As a senior (Bryan's junior year), he was his final height of 6'7". He was the tallest guy in our school. To date, he was the owner of the widest pair of shoulders I've ever seen. He liked to wear polos at school that showed off his biceps. I'd say he probably had 16" biceps but they were so long on his body. I've never seen anything like it, and it drove me NUTS because all I wanted to do was touch them. He had a tight waist, maybe size 34" inseam. But with his long legs, he just was in my view the ultimate man. Plus the guy had a deep deep voice which always made me wonder what he was packing in his shorts. I've never seen a more attractive man in a basketball uniform. He looked like a pro-bball player at 16. That same lanky definition. Sadly, he was very straight and reinforced that with a new girl on his arm every week. He was just painfully hot. Thankfully, though, he provided enough mental images to get me through those long confusing nights. : )

My favorite experience, though, came when he showed up at the pool I lifeguarded at during the summers. For the first time, I saw him shirtless. Let me tell you, it's really REALLY hard to hide a boner in a pair of loose swim trunks. Anyway, the minute he took off his shirt, I knew it was going to take all my restraint not to try and fuck him right there in public. He had a well-defined six-pack as well as some blond chest hair right in between his meaty pecs. His biceps - which flexed wildly as he put them behind his head to rest - nearly sent me over the edge. They had the perfect definition, with a thick softball sized head that just showcased his amazing strength. Still gets me hard just thinking about it. He was so tall that he couldn't fit properly on the lounges we had for everyone to use. He had to get a smaller chair and set it a half foot away from the lounge that he used to prop up his long long legs and size 15 feet.

I've never masturbated so furiously in my life when I came home from work that day. I actually left at lunch so I could go home and take care of it. And when I finally got off work, I did it again. To this day, his image floats to my mind whenever I'm needing material to jerk off to. His amazing body. His amazing height. It was... bliss. : )

--JSmith

[tarmangani]

Interesting that a thread could see so much activity on it's first day. Those interested might want to check out a thread called, "Muscle History", posed by The MM. Similar idea and great stories.

[Big RR]

Tell us how big you got on your first cycle stud ! At the age of 14 right? I love that ! You must have beat off 20times a day at that age! And you probably felt the most incredible strength?


BigRussell

[alterego]

It was was pretty awesome, And I was horny as fuck. I gained about 8 pounds my first month. I loved it because my friends were so Jealous cause I was bulking up and they were still these skinny twigs. They had no clue I was on them so They were working out just as hard as me but not seeing any results haha. But like I said I'm trying to cut steroids off from my life, I love the way They feel but I think 6 Years is Enough, I'll still try and to get bigger though. This is an awesome post btw

[Joeyboi]

When I was 13 I really started to notice changes in my body, watching everything starting to get bigger was the best feeling in the world. I loved rubbing my developing cock, watching it get hard, playing with it more and more. It wasn’t until High School I really started to notice muscle watching the guys in my gym class, lift the huge weights. The way they looked with there thick muscle’s filling up there clothes turned me on in every way, But at the same time I felt skinnier. I finally decided to workout myself when I turned 16 setting up a small weight set in my basement. I didn’t tell anyone about my work outs, afraid to tell them how huge I really wanted to Get. I was never really noticed in High School, and I guess I knew working might have changed that.

Sadly, though I didn’t see any results until I was in college, gaining close to a whopping 25 pounds. I loved the way it felt but still craved more, my drive to get bigger increasing. I kept getting frustrated not seeing the results I wanted, hitting the weights off and on. I’m 28 Now and have been really hitting the gym, actually making some nice gains. I want to see how big I can get naturally... I Would probably use steroids if I Knew where to get some, But I’ll never give up on My Goal To Get Freaky!

[7leecker]

I was eight, I guess. My mom would leave me by myself at Art's Barbershop to have my hair cut. If I was lucky, there was a wait and I could sit and read a couple comics with the Weider ads in the back. Then Art would say 'next' and it would be my turn. Art was a former Marine with a flattop and glasses. He wore a tight white cotton or poly short-sleeved barber shirt. And he had muscles, big biceps and ropy forearms. The chair was in a corner with mirrors on two sides. Looking straight ahead was really hard. As he moved around me and his arms circled my head, my head kept bobbing. Every once in a while, he would prod me back into place. My eyes must have been spinning. It's a wonder I didn't break my neck. Oh, Art.

[chronos]

Hmm for me it must have been around when I was 8 my dad is a personal trainer at a gym so I would be hanging around there after school or when I had the day off so I'd got to see alot of really big guys walking around the place, the owner and a good friend of my father was one of the biggest guys I'd ever seen and I was amazed by him ever time he'd walk by or talk to me. But the other things also gave it away, the cartoon street sharks as well as spiderman, batman, and Ultra Force. There were other shows as well but I can't remember them right now. But yeah I kinda knew I was into muscle back then. Of course theres more but I'm lazy soo just ask me on yahoo if your really intrested but I know no one will cause I'm not a big wig on the forums ^.^

[Notbigenuff]

When one of my classmates was showing off his muscle. Which I know must have been pretty small (as we all were in second grade) but pretty impressive to me at the time. I also remember the old "Sinbad" cartoons - which there was a recent thread about - so there wasn't just one moment in time, but a series of moments that I didn't fully appreciate until puberty kicked in (about sixth grade - I was an early bloomer).

[jerseyflex]

elementary school. a kid brought in a muscle magazine and for whatever reason i was completely captivated. then i was on a swim team and some of the older kids (14-18) were supremely built and in speedos. as i grew i naturally developed decent pecs and other kids would ask me to "make them hard" and they would punch them.

i never had a chance. i was totally hooked. i started j-ing off to muscle imagery at such an early age I dont think i knew what i was doing. (i still remember the first time something came out when i climaxed....yep, thats right i was doing it before i was producing anything....crazy or what?)

nice to see others used muscle magazines. thought i was the only one.

but there were a few defining moments:
- most muscular swimmer on my team in a speedo flexing with a bunch of girls touching various body parts for a picture
- most muscular kid in my school parading around gym class flexing
- same kid taking the smallest skinniest kid in class and lifting him, pressing him overhead then tossing him into a pile of mats

woulld love to have seen alterego (up above) when he first started to realize his massive-ness. we had a muscle head who started getting crazy big and he was always showing off and intimidating other smaller weaker kids with hit. wow.

i need to go take care of some business. ;0)~

[Big RR]

My family use to do the going out to eat every Saturday evening while growing up. I can remember saying I wasn't hungry and staying home just so I could stay at home and watch Bodybuilding o Wide World of Sports and beat off lol! Watch it! I am not just 41 lol! I can remember getting so turned on and cumming 3 or 4 times watching and thinking about getting huge like them!

It wasn't until I was 32 and came down with menengitis that I got serious about getting huge! I had worked out and had a nice body but after being on a morphine pump. in the hospital for 21 days, almost dying and my weight dropped from 185lbs to 135. The doctors told me it was a good thing I had all that muscle, had it been fat I would have died.

Once I recoverd, I was determined to get freaky huge! I soon started a great mass building cycle and with 7 months I shot up to 226lbs! I as huge and so damn horny! The feeling was incredible! Still huge and going for 280lbs or more! Love having the straight boys coming into my shower stall with woodies and asking me to flex while they shoot a load. My apologies to those of you who feel this was to much information lol! Keep growing guys!
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[arpeejay]

Great story, Big RR! How tall are you? How much do you weigh now?

Pix, dammit, pix!

rpj

[BergMuscle]

I was always fasinated by muscle ads when I was a pre-teen and teenager, maybe even before that. I remember that I used to cut those ads out of magazines and collect them with the thought in my mind that "someday" I would grow muscles like that, but I was "too young" for that right now. Well, I somehow didn't realize I wasn't "too young" until a lot of years later.

The short version is that I'm so happy that I've discovered the joy of muscle building and I believe that restrictions of age or genetics are tiny compared to what I, or any man, can do with hard work and determination.

There used to be ads that said "Muscles Make the Man". The impression that left on me was that a well-muscled man was an attractive man, and vice-versa.

[jerseyflex]

wait....did i read this correctly.............135 to 226 in 7 months.............do you mind if I train with you?!?!?!!!!!

like the way berg's pecs fill out the UA shirt.........isnt Under Armour just the best invention EVER!?!

[Bull]

I can't remember the order in which these things happened; it all kind of blurs together.

There was a sketch on some late-night show with Steve Allen that was a spoof of beauty contests, only with men, and it featured bodybuilders.

The episode of Beverly Hillbillies with Dave Draper.

The Weider ads with Draper in Mechanix Illustrated.

Seeing Jim Haislop on the cover of Strength and Health.

A classmate of mine on "Dress Down Day" in a tank top, flexing his pecs.

But by junior high I was a full-blown muscle-lover.

[geo07]

Hi, I'm new and I figured that this is probably the best way to introduce myself.

For me, I guess it started when I was watching dragonball z, as well as any other cartoon or show that had muscles/growth as a kid.
Then in middle school, some of the other students were really athletic and built up a good bit of muscle, who I would stare at every day (fortunately they never noticed!)

[Notbigenuff]

Originally Posted by Bull

...
The episode of Beverly Hillbillies with Dave Draper.

The Weider ads with Draper in Mechanix Illustrated.

Two favorites of mine, too!

[goodnight3455]

My first time was watching Battle Dome and watching Mike O'Dell's (played by Mike O'Hearn) thighs... that was it. Then, in high school, I saw this football player walking on the sidewalk and I couldn't stop staring at his swaying quads...

These days, I workout unhealthily: I'm a compulsive overtrainer, have a staring problem, and don't eat enough to heal properly. I blame Mike O'Dell.

Now, he's on American Gladiators and I can't stop thinking about his quads!

[Eager Muscle]

I love these types of threads!

Just to cull from my previous post on a similar thread...

My earliest memories were cartoons of Popeye and Sinbad Jr. when I was four - I'd find myself tuning in just to see Popeye's biceps pop after downing a can of spinach, or Sinbad's torso bulge with power after cinching in his belt. Thus began my lifelong love of sailors, er muscle, lol.

By six and seven I also felt tingly watching Jethro flex poolside after swimming a lap on "The Beverly Hillbillies," the surfer flexing on "Gilligan's Island," Chris Dickerson (who I walked by near Bethesda Fountain in Central Park nearly fifteen years later in '87 - clothed, alas, wish I stopped!) on "What's My Line," shirtless Peter Lupus on "Mission Impossible" and flexing in a muscleman lineup on "Muscle Beach Party" (a Frankie & Annette movie).

At eight or nine I discovered Popular Science bodybuilding ads, and comic book musclebuilding ads for Charles Atlas, Universal Bodybuilding and Muscle Fighter IV . I was too shy (and too young) to ever order the courses., but I did develop a major crush fixation on Robert Nailon and "bodybuilder-composite" "Saul New York - a boy can dream, right?

At 10 - Lyle Waggoner on Carol Burnett. Then I learned that you can have muscles AND be funny. Well, sorta funny.

At eleven I inherited 1946 and 1973 issues of "Muscle Builder" magazine. I was amazed by the rough, masculine men of 1946 like John Grimek, Sig Klein, Bert Goodrich, Joe Weider himself, amateur Canadian Gerry Lemay, mightily flexing so unself-consciously in their tiny posing pouches and big posing trunks. And the more contemporary bodybuilders with their long hair and long sideburns, sporting bigger, veinier shinier muscles and smaller posing trunks in leopard and gold lame - Dave Draper posing in ad after ad with curvacious beach bunny Betty Weider in matching leopard, Frank Zane, Arnold, Larry Scott, Chuck Sipes, Rick Peters, an imposing before & after picture of then Junior Mr. Jordan, etc.

By thirteen and fourteen I'd be jealous of and trying not to stare at those guys in gym class who matured early - you know the ones, with square jaws, v-tapers, five o'clock shadows, six packs and bulging biceps. Don't think I'm the only one who noticed 'em - they've proven the fodder for many a muscle growth tale I've enjoyed. I was always afraid I'd get pounded into the ground if I looked too long - little did I know that some of them were, shall we say, overcompensating. Took me till my 10 year high school reunion to figure THAT out when the same guys, more heavily muscled, were staring at me. Conclusions reached a lot sooner in some of the not-so-fantasy muscle bully stories I've read in these forums.

Oddly, once I actually began bodybuilding I progressed really fast - my avatar was taken only 7 months after I began training!

Still, until the internet opened my eyes I never knew anyone was like me - into muscle growth. I didn't even know there was such a thing as muscle worship! Pre-bodybuilding I was lucky - I was cute enough to bypass the "muscle-for-muscle" credos of a couple of seriously jacked bodybuilders. But I lacked the confidence to ask them to pose and flex - I thought if I asked they'd think me a perv! To find out via the internet that I wasn't alone, that there were at least thousands of other men turned on by muscle transformation was a lifechanging epiphany.

Forgive me for getting on my "dais," but isn't it amazing how we torture ourselves? Straights probably think we're selfish with no accountability because of our escapist escapades at clubs and our sexual pursuits. How many of us are making up for the years of psychological turmoil involved in living a lie so that we could protect our families or careers instead of (or in addition to) our own hides? With few exceptions, can most straights (much less those gays who were always out and proud, who I profoundly respect) acknowledge, much less empathize or even credit us with enduring such denial and self-loathing?

Musclegrowth.org should credit itself for helping new generations of likeminded burgeoning musclestuds understand that they're not alone, that their desires are healthy and natural, so that those with this predisposition will make the eventual leap from bodybuilding.com to bigmuscle.com to musclegrowth.org without hangups or guilt. Those rabblerousers that might consider that attitude "recruiting" may cry foul, but in my book if one's actions encourages others to be truly happy being themselves, that's a good thing. No pun (or pop cultural references) intended, but this site should "press" on!


[COLOR="Red"]"What doesn't kill us makes us stronger."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"Men seldom make passes at girls who wear glasses."
- Dorothy Parker[/COLOR]

[msclundylvr]

For me, the first instance of being attracted to muscle was a computer magazine. The place I worked after school answering the phone and doing some clerical work subscribed to it. In the ads in the back, there was a revolutionary product a the time that would help plan workouts and menus for training. I still remember the photo that appeared issue after issue. It was this absolutely stunning muscle guy, completely cut to shreds with pink posers on. Needless to say, there were several phone calls that went unanswered because I was in the toilet taking care of personal business.

Looking back, I've always been attracted to the tall, handsome jock type, which caused a ton of confusion for me coming from a very conservative part of a very conservative state. I absolutely did not (still don't) understand the attraction all of the other guys had for girls. The guy whose smile would always make me melt inside was both the captain of the basketball team and the QB for the football team. He's even gone on to be a professional athlete. I've since moved away from the area and haven't seen him since we graduated, but reports on the homefront are that he's an absolute rock of man these days--maybe I should consider going to the upcoming class reunion if not just to run into him...

[CelticMuscle]

Originally Posted by Bull

I can't remember the order in which these things happened; it all kind of blurs together. There was a sketch on some late-night show with Steve Allen that was a spoof of beauty contests, only with men, and it featured bodybuilders. The episode of Beverly Hillbillies with Dave Draper. The Weider ads with Draper in Mechanix Illustrated. Seeing Jim Haislop on the cover of Strength and Health. A classmate of mine on "Dress Down Day" in a tank top, flexing his pecs. But by junior high I was a full-blown muscle-lover.

For shame! You missed perhaps the most obvious one of the whole lot (with you being involved in musical theatre)

http://www.povonline.com/images21/abner2.jpg

Li'l Abner the stage musical from 1957 played by Peter Palmer.

[Mark69]

[COLOR=yellow]I hadn't thought about this for years before seeing this thread and then one of the early replies brought back really happy memories.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=yellow]I loved Tarzan films from when I was about 5 or 6 years old. There was also quite a long-running TV series featuring "boy" (was that his name?) and I'd dream I was him being cradled against Tarzan's chest as he carried me through the trees. Every night I'd imagine I was curled up in his arms being protected by him. By the time I was 9 I noticed also getting warm fluttering sensations in my stomach when I saw his muscles flexing as he fought a lion or - especially - another muscled warrior. The thought of feeling his muscles writhing against mine made me quite light-headed. My very first sexual experience came just before I was 10 when I had a dream about play-wrestling him and my spontaneous ejaculation woke me up. Since then I've known exactly what floats my boat - although it wasn't actually until I was 18 that I knew there was anybody else in the world like me.[/COLOR]

[BigLittleTim]

My best friend growing up had three older brothers, each one more handsome than the next. They all kind'a looked like Jim Morrison, from The Doors, only on steroids (This WAS the late '70s, guys!)

I must have been in the second or third grade, playing with Dougie over at his house, when his two eldest brothers came home from Pop Warner Football practice. They were still wearing their uniforms and shoulder pads but I don't think that registered with me. I just knew they looked ENORMOUS and so powerful! When Doug's family went on vacation I snuck over their house, into their garage, and tried on his brothers' football pads! I even ASKED for shoulder pads for my birthday! I think I may have gotten my father's hopes up, but I had no interest in learning how to play football, only in the way the uniform and padding made me look. Lah!

Eventually, many years later, I DID become a jock of sorts. Physically I've completely eclipsed the boys up the street, especially when they got out of highschool and became skinny... or fat.

-BigLitleTim

[pumpin20inguns]

Can relate to the shoulder pads. 11yrsold, I wanted to look big, so I wore them to school one day...did'nt end well.

I think in general, a turning point occurs in middle school, boys start to get consumed with being 'manly'. Especially after seeing Arnold or the Rocky movies. Lifting earns alot of Respect. By 7th Grade, I got hooked on creatine, did every bicep exercise I could find, my arms expanded to 14 inches. Did the ego good, fun to show off.

[boricua1]

I guess I started off early with a desire but didn't act upon it until i was in my late teens. I guess that's why I was very self conscious as a teen. As a kid I would see cartoons like Thundercats and Heman, and get hard from some of the muscle growth that was on it. I really didn't understand it. I started to in my early teen years.

I would have muscle magazines and see muscle transformation in the media and sit there and wish it was me. I mean some of these examples would be 250 -300 lbs muscle men. I would fill shirts with stuffing to look bigger and pretend I was that big.

I kept this intense attaction to muscle to myself. J.O. to mags and body building web sites. Still do at times lol. I would outline the bodies of the big guys in the mags and draw my face on it. It was a surpressed feeling. I had friends and family tell me all the time, "I don't like huge muscles on a guy. It's gross."

So I went as far as to agree with them and tried to ignore the fact that I wanted to be a 260 lbs muscle monster. That I had to hide this deep desire to flex bulging massively thick muscles. The sheer thought of ripping out of my clothes and pose in the nude was secretly inviting and made me cream my pants at times.

I guess it comes from being really skinny as a teen as well. I didn't want to be just lean, I wanted to be a big beefy thick muscle head. I guess what also turns me on is the movement of big guys, you can't move without the muscle getting in the way or moving with you. For som e reason that's hot to me.

When you see a guy with a massive chest run, you can see it bouncing. Same with thick quads busting out of a pair of shorts. Muscles touching each other with a big hard on sticking out in front you. You can say I most thoroughly enjoy looking and feeling that mass on me and others. I know it's a little far fetched and publicly nudity isn't condoned but I've just day dreamed being this 200 something pounder muscle god walking around naked.

Anybody ever had that dream? lol. Well anyways, I'm on my way to becoming that thick muscle head slowly but surely.

[BergMuscle]

Originally Posted by boricua1

I guess I started off early with a desire but didn't act upon it until i was in my late teens. I guess that's why I was very self conscious as a teen. As a kid I would see cartoons like Thundercats and Heman, and get hard from some of the muscle growth that was on it. I really didn't understand it. I started to in my early teen years.

I would have muscle magazines and see muscle transformation in the media and sit there and wish it was me. I mean some of these examples would be 250 -300 lbs muscle men. I would fill shirts with stuffing to look bigger and pretend I was that big.

I kept this intense attaction to muscle to myself. J.O. to mags and body building web sites. Still do at times lol. I would outline the bodies of the big guys in the mags and draw my face on it. It was a surpressed feeling. I had friends and family tell me all the time, "I don't like huge muscles on a guy. It's gross."

So I went as far as to agree with them and tried to ignore the fact that I wanted to be a 260 lbs muscle monster. That I had to hide this deep desire to flex bulging massively thick muscles. The sheer thought of ripping out of my clothes and pose in the nude was secretly inviting and made me cream my pants at times.

I guess it comes from being really skinny as a teen as well. I didn't want to be just lean, I wanted to be a big beefy thick muscle head. I guess what also turns me on is the movement of big guys, you can't move without the muscle getting in the way or moving with you. For som e reason that's hot to me.

When you see a guy with a massive chest run, you can see it bouncing. Same with thick quads busting out of a pair of shorts. Muscles touching each other with a big hard on sticking out in front you. You can say I most thoroughly enjoy looking and feeling that mass on me and others. I know it's a little far fetched and publicly nudity isn't condoned but I've just day dreamed being this 200 something pounder muscle god walking around naked.

Anybody ever had that dream? lol. Well anyways, I'm on my way to becoming that thick muscle head slowly but surely.

So much of your story is my story, too. Always fasinated by muscles, fantasied about having my own "musclebody". Embarassed to say I even did the shirt stuffing thing, and putting my face on bodybuilder drawings.

I'm just proud that I've got real muscles filling my shirts now.

[vlad]

I had this book when I was a little kid about giants, and there was a section with Paul Bunyon...for some reason, reading about this giant, manly lumberjack got me going. Of course, at the time I didn't even know what was going on, it was just self-stimulation (I was like 5 or something), but...yeah.

As time went on, I got off on creating elaborate stories involving growth within my head, all in my imagination. Then I found World's Strongest Man on ESPN. =)

I never wanted to be that big, and still don't really...I just wanted to be around that kind of power, and be dominated or controlled by it. And I've got what I wanted (my bf is 280lbs of musclebear beef).

[Mdlftr]

Originally Posted by BergMuscle

So much of your story is my story, too. Always fasinated by muscles, fantasied about having my own "musclebody". Embarassed to say I even did the shirt stuffing thing, and putting my face on bodybuilder drawings.

I'm just proud that I've got real muscles filling my shirts now.

Guys, you've both said it really well: The desire, the secrecy, the condemnation of having (let alone wanting) big muscles by everyone you know,

but,

BEST of all,

your own determination to lift and get big that is coming true!

I'm with you both all the way on this one! I, too, am making my own muscle growth story come true! [Maybe not 260#, but my own version of that! A big chest and proportionate arms and legs do it for me! And that's what I'm successfully working towards!]

Mdlftr

[BigLittleTim]

OH! I forgot about Paul Bunyon back in grade school! I was HYPNOTIZED by the picture of him in my third-grade reader. Big, red-haired, flannel shirt, beard, muscles on top of muscles, and taller than a tree!

It all came back to me when Mark McGuire was hitting all his home runs. I thought: "Oh my god! It's Paul Bunyon all over again!:



-BigLitteTim

[pumpin20inguns]

Muscle can definitely stop you in your tracks. Anyone remember bodybuilder Bob Paris? Now that was a body.

[BigLittleTim]

Met Bob Paris in P-town years ago.
I was carrying his bags up the path to his guest house (my boyfriend and I had just picked him up at the airport) and the owners were there waiting to receive him... and they thought I was HIM!
All they knew was this guy was supposed to be a big bodybuilder. They didn't know what he actually looked like. Anyhoo... He was pretty... post-cycle, as it were, and I was pretty puffed up at the time. It was really embarrasing, and GREAT. They're pumping my hand saying how happy they are that I'm staying with them. Bob didn't talk much to me that week-end.

lah.

BigLittletim

[BigLittleTim]

double post

[arpeejay]

What I really liked were the (very few) pix of Bob Paris, slightly offseason and completely unshaved. Deliciously furry!

xoxo

Richard

[pumpin20inguns]

wow, Tim lucky you. He must have been pissed. By the way, Bob's biography 'Gorilla Suit' is definitely worth a read.